I have a lot of thoughts running through my head most days that it’s bene tough to sit and blog.

But here we go:

The stay at home mom life is wonderful. It’s incredibly powerful to witness the growth of your little ones and be the primary guide for them. But I can 100% say it is not for me – not full-time at least.

I’m 13 months postpartum and it’s been 4 years since I first became a mom but I’m still navigating my role as a woman/mother/wife. And I’ve been told that this evolution is never ending.

I am thankful for this role and love all forms of development but I still need a breather.

A lot of moms I’ve talked to have taken on their role as the primary caregiver or default parent in their household. Some moms are on autopilot and other moms are trying to cope. Some days are for survival and others feel like we’re walking on clouds.

I’m so anxious about this time and knowing that despite the fact that I will be working I will still be the default parent. I am the one doing pickups/drop-offs, I will need to take time off if they’re sick/go to the doctor, I will be the one to still maintain their general development (activities, registrations, etc) AND keep up with home chores. How does that even work!

Luckily my partner is wonderful and does a lot at home. And since he’s solely running his own business he makes it a priority to be home when I need him to be (if you need a plumber: www.reynoldsplumbingandheating.com).

I also try to communicate my needs as much as possible. In the last year I’ve found that I attempt to martyr myself and make ‘sacrifices’ for my home/kids/everyone other than myself. By the time I’m burnt out I’m a screaming ball of fury/emotions. It’s not fun for anyone.

So I guess this blog is cathartic. I’m writing it to release my anxiety but ALSO so that you vocalize your needs when you feel it arise.