Being a solo parent for the last week gave me profound admiration for single mothers.

Things outside of my control happened and despite already being overwhelmed with the needs I knew my children would have I was forced to deal with the external issues that affected us. Being heavily pregnant only exacerbated my situation. I was frustrated with the limitations my body forced on to me. Unable to do things with ease or without pain.

I felt so alone and so helpless. I lost my patience. I became the mother I never knew I could be; angry and constantly irritated by my little dependents.

It seemed so unfair to me that I was was stuck at home in the trenches of motherhood on my own.

I felt like a single mom except not really. With no hope of relief —-until my husband would return in ten days.  

Taking myself off social media was essential to my survival. Along with my amazing village that just showed up for me. I can never express my gratitude enough.

And now I’m back on social not really sure about next steps. I am learning boundaries but also wanting to be transparent and share it all because I know I’m not the only one who goes through this.